Commitment

That's the word of the year. Lord knows I need to commit to somethings.

This word came to me like five minutes before 2023.

"I don't commit to anything for an extended period of time." I admitted to a friend of mine as we shared some chips and queso.

"I invest a lot in. When I don't get the same amount out, I quit."

That way of life works with some things. For instance, if you are at a casino, you shouldn't keep feeding the machines money if you are not getting back anything in return. Some relationships, jobs, there are a few things we can apply un-commit strategy to.

However, it is not so with a lot of things. God ordained, purposeful things must continue in order to Kingdom Building to grow and continue. You want God's work with your finger prints on it, then you actually got to do the work. AND KEEP DOING IT. We all know that His ways are not our ways, His thoughts are not our thoughts. We should also know that his view of success is also different from ours. Me quitting on an assignment because I don't see any results can lead to disruption everywhere else. Not just with me, but with others that are connected to me. And boy have I caused some disruption!

I've quit writing. I've quit posting monthly Bible Studies. Both are due to the lack of success I feel I gained with them. So I quit. I stop doing them for a while. Always with a promise that I was going to pick it back up. But the thought of doing so, made me cringe. In this case, I allowed the bad to far out weigh the good. "Maybe this isn't what God wants me to do."

So I stopped. Knowing good and well that I had just quit on God. When you quit on God, you want to be like Jonah. Run away. I'll do this for a short period of time, but I'm no fool. I need Him. I can't be not talking to God. So, I'll thank Him each day. I will submit my prayer request for others and situations going on in my life. And throw in a, "I'll just chill on the writing or recording until you tell me what to do. Lord until I see a burning bush, hear a whisper, a dove descend upon whatever it is you want me to do, I ain't doing it. Oh, in Jesus name, Amen."

I get up from that prayer feeling so empty. I go about life feeling dead inside. I'm just going through the motions because I am not operating in the capacity that I should. It's not helping me. It's not helping Him or His people. What a waste. I don't want to be a waste. I don't want to be one of those people who need the applause to keep going. The likes, the clicks the shares shouldn't motivate me. If it is a God assignment, then he determines whether or not I've done well. If it is a God assignment, it's based off who you are. More specifically what He has created you to do. So how can I run from it?

To be fully alive, I got to operate in my calling. Its's a no matter what deal. I am a teacher. I am a writer. So, let me commit to the task of each of these. Let us pray.

It came to me to commit to three things. What are those three things? Writing, Recording Bible Study, and Health. It also came to me to break it up. Instead of looking at it by way of the whole year, let's do it monthly. And from that, even further. So here is what it looks like:

I commit to writing at least three times a week. (script)

I commit to writing here on this blog once a week.

I commit to recording a Bible Study and posting on YouTube once a week. Once a week on Instagram.

I commit to eating sweets every other day.

That is my January commitment!

I may add vlogging to the mix. Just to hold myself accountable. It will be raw and uncut too. Hair might not be done. Fresh out of bed. I don't know. We'll see.

By the way, this blog was not supposed to be this long. It's also just fresh off my head. No editing or anything like that. However, it counts as a weekly writing!!

Stay tuned.